I refuse to take a picture of the nastiness that is going on with my feet but I did google it for images and I feel like a little brat complaining about mine now that I have seen pics of how others are suffering with eczema. Those poor people, whoever they are. Seriously. I should just shut up right now. But yet, this post goes on...
The itch, oh the itch of it. This is one heck of an itch. I am not talking a little itch. It's like I want to stab my foot with something sharp (I have had pictures in my mind of doing just that with scissors and even one of my Mom's knitting needles, no joke) and then scratch the crap out of my foot from the inside. It's like this really deep in the tissue type itch. I get temporary relief from lavender essential oil (seriously that stuff is amazing!) but it's getting out of hand now.
But when I scratch it...oh my...it's euphoric. For real. You have no idea. Now I am not talking the big "O" type stuff is happening (this is where you are to get your mind out of the gutter!) but it definitely is more than scratching an itch and just having it go away. There is an actual feeling of "AHHHHH" when I allow my self to scratch my feet. It does feel amazing. This post is actually sounding very weird at this point. but, I will carry on. It's how I roll.
Please note, I am not sitting here scratching my feet and hollering out like a orgasmic lunatic. Just for the record.
It led me to look up why that is. I read a few articles that suggested that scratching may release endorphins in some people. I never knew that. I also read that there are people with skin conditions similar to mine that actually have found that heat helps with the itching. Some scorch their skin with scalding hot water for relieve, or use their hair dryers on the spots or even burn themselves on hot radiators for relief. This scares me! Not to mention that heat actually makes the eczema way worse so for that temporary relieve they actually do more damage! What a terrible situation to be in. And mine is an area that is not visible very often. I can avoid having it visible ever, If I want to. But some people have it all over their bodies and even on their faces.
I see things a little differently right now. My feet are insanely itchy and nasty looking right now but I have seen how lucky I am. And that was not the intent of my post. I actually starting this post totally with the intent on complaining and telling you about how awesome scratching my feet can be these days.
I am an ass.
You can say it. I just did.
And to further my assness (not a word I am pretty sure) I did find a pic of someone with a similar case of eczema to mine. These are not my feet but mine look similar.
|I won't show you my own feet, but I will show you some strangers feet. Nice eh?|
Nothing like a good dose of reality to open your eyes up. That and some pretty nasty images on Google.
And now, I am going to put some lavender oil on my feet and shut up.